Life And Lemons

[Jeremy]

Well there is a term I'm sure alot of you have heard and it goes a little something like this "When life gives you lemons make lemonade". Well If you haven't heard it you just did ha ha. Well I can tell you personally the last week I haven't been making lemonade. I got to the point in the last week that I just hated my life. I didn't want to end life there's a difference here. I hated my current place in life.

I was going thru that and also been attacked all the time from the enemy that I am alone. Attacking me telling me I'm alone and the only one my age, no one understands what I'm going thru cause most of my friends are younger. Normally that doesn't affect me but I was kinda already feeling that way so it really got me.

Well there was some other things but I'm not gonna talk about them but their not important issues. But come Friday I guess it finally got to the point were a meltdown was coming and you know what it came.

I was driving out to meet up with some friends and I was just praying and all of a sudden God grabbed me while I was driving. I will definitely tell you its hard to drive while your crying.

It was like God came down in that car and told me you know what here's what's going on. I didn't know why I felt the way I did cause there was so much but God knew why and knew it was time for me to find out.

Now by the time I got to meet up with my friends I never did hang with them I ended up talking to one of my moms friends. (I've grown up with her most my life and I needed to talk and I trusted her)

I left that night finally knowing what was wrong. Now it wasn't gone though. I still was dealing with it. But Sunday morning we were at church and for some reason I didn't want to be there (I found out later it was cause God was gonna do something and the enemy didn't want me to go). Well we were worshiping and The worship band started singing a song about this generation in a song that we sing and right then God just like hit me with a 2x4 or something. Cause in that instance I knew he was wanting to fix my problems and confusion.

By the end of worship I didn't feel the same when I came in. God had totally changed me. I know longer felt depressed, felt like I wasn't suppose to be were I was in God and felt like I wasn't amounting to anything. I felt like I was right were I was suppose to be and still do.

Now I know for me when I have a big problem I go to God but when I got a little problem I tend to want to deal with it myself. Well all my little problems started little but then got bigger and caused me to go into the state I was in.

So from now on I am going to try my hardest to always go to God. A problem may start small but it can always get out of hand or get bigger but God can help you and keep you from making the situation worse.

I don't know how many people have felt this way in this new year but I honestly don't believe I'm the only one. Something new is coming and everyone is being affected. But we need to let it be known so its not lingering in the dark but we need to shed light onto this problem so it no longer has its power.

Tell Next Time

Much Love ~ Jeremy Newton
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